chicken!!!!
hehehe...i want to dedicate this post to chicken. but sadly i dont have the time to make a good one. i really have to run.
just wanted to tell you that chicken visited me today in elbi. it was a nice surprise. tho, we couldnt spend so much time together coz she had to leave after 3 hours...its enuf to survive another 6 months of not seeing each other. hehehe. so she says...
oh well...
miss you chicken.
later tonight is the navigator's induction dinner. bought a red polo...hoping to look good. hehehe.
peace out....
losing my grip. [4:01 PM]
July Wrap Up
as decently and as organize i could put it, should i apologize just as well. hahaha...im no good at writing. as i always say my mind is too complex to be smeared on to a 2 dimensional piece of paper...oh well, in this case...a microscopic entity in the worldwide web. hahaha. but nevertheless, w/ very much effort i have gone this far (a total of 20 posts) breezing a whole month of july (time flys!) with plenty memories squeezed into my microscopic online world.
hahaha...now that is a bonafide jasper achievement
hold on...while i open up my blog to review my archives for the month of july.
::highlights of the month::
*rid rams (ridiculous ramblings) was officially opened to the public on the 7th of july.
*first post of rid rams feat. -yaj- the author of the blog and one of his rid rams "bitter"*
*skool skeds shout outs/back bites and a typical week established*
*met and got close with rand, a freshie...hu now is a younger bro*
*moya convincing me to join gene soc, when i did, and how i quitted*
*dad left me on july 16; hey, its been 15 days w/o having dad around!!!*
*the beginning of skuls exams*
hehehe...i guess thats about it. of course i have officially opened rid rams' TNTs and Month Wrap Ups.
july was swell...didnt start out great but the momentum came just before the month ended.
it was also nice living w/o dad. i do miss him but this gave me the opportunity to spend time with my best, jomar, and rand, my newly found lil bro. they have become fond sleepover pals and kept me company in the lonely and isolated apartment. budgetting isnt so bad. i do tend to over budget but i keep a good record. i eat out alot and stick to can-goods at home, i cannot possibly find the time to cook myself a good meal.
acads? mediocre performance so far. btw, im pleased to tell you that a got 89.5/100 in my vmcb124 exam. thats top 4 among the other vet med students taking the course. maam told us that it was still partial and a 8pt bonus is at stake. do hope i got the bonus right, that will make atleast a grade of 93...w/c is already fine. still havnt recieved the scores of my bio 101 exam and mcb101 lab exam. im kinda hoping for inspiring scores.
luvlyf? haay, need i say more. i guess i just got to admit that when lovers pass by or when hearing how much my dear cuzn loves her new found BF...i cant help but sigh...hehehe. lonely guy here wishing to be loved. not that im not...God does love me, and my family too...my bargs and pretty much plenty of pips. but you do get the pt...im just stuck with liking pipol (girls actually) from afar. i pretty much want it that way but the other half of that "pretty much" wants otherwise. now, im driving myself crazy with such.
ECA's? Navs, arnis...im ok. though sometimes i do find it getting in the way of my study skeds but still ECA's have become one of the ways to get away from skul. besides, its good to have a balanced life style. acads, a varsity, a rel org, social affiliations, best friends and family. hehehe....hmmm....i know it lacks one aspect but i already talked about it. so i wont elaborate no more.
i do miss davao and all the people living in it. hahaha... i miss my BRO, my dear cuzn; ate honey, pem and nikko. haay...oh well.
oist....rand is here. havn't had dinner. so ill be leaving in a while.
hmm...thats about it.
rid rams for july.
ps. oh dear. my rid ram wrap up came too early. hahaha...akala ko july 30 ang last day ng month. oh well....nevertheless.
bon apetit
losing my grip. [8:30 PM]
TNTS....
that is thursday night talk backs; decided that the title of this post go by one of my favorite radio shows i love listening to hosted by killer bee jocked by really cool djs. its a great program really, its amazing how it can make davao fit into one small box where everybody is given the chance to voice out their ideas on a particular topic of the night.
oh well, its a thursday night - a night when people in elbi go out to bars, party, etc etc...
tonight, freedom park is loaded with people all rocking on the grooves and tunes of South Border. im definitly not there. huhuhu. oh no, its not the weather...its raining but nobody actually cares....they just want to get their 130 pesos worth anyways...
as i said in my last post, im just tired. looking at the perimeter of the fence they set up (as they always do in every concert), i all the more lost the apetite to enjoy the evening. i believe its really packed tonight...no fun there. not to mention its raining, stinking human stench, the cant do away with my cigarette so butt off kinda people...etc etc.
earlier this morning...i slept around 1.30 and got up at 5.30. had my first exam in bio 140...and all that studying and memorizing wasnt worth a thing. it was a mere 10 + 6 + 11 + 5 essay questions exam. NO OBJECTIVE QUESTIONS! God, if you didnt study well you have no chance of passing this exam. it definitely wasnt easy and i did over memorize alot of objective particulars w/c did not come out at all...argh...of all things. i feel so wasted knowing that i already saturated my body with caffeine, deprived myself with sleep and doing such a unexpected mediocre performance after driving myself to upper limits almost perfecting a different aspect of the subject matter W/C NEVER CAME OUT OF THE EXAM....huhuhu...oh well. least i could do is NOT TO CRY OVER SPILLED MILK and to 'show off' memorized facts in the essay portion practically overdoing my answers. hahaha....
training went well. its quite overwhelming seeing all the newbies training. CQ was kinda pissed to see only 3 arnis varsity members as compared to 8 trainies... but it was nice seeing a lot of newbies. as matter of fact, i have this certain liking for this trainee...hehehe. shes kinda cute with this nice smile. of course being the flirty self, i couldnt resist but make her my favorite when it comes to teaching, checking and correcting the basics. oh well...its just another crush. flirty but torpe...haay...lets drop that subject.
oh...the house is a wreck. you could imagine especially after working my way into last night. earlier when i had to change to my training gear, i was literally skipping over bowls, coffee mugs, trash, notes...the like. (i study on a wooden - tiled mat on top of some beddings. sa floor po yan.) hahaha...oh well, i have alot of cleaning to do when i get home.
oh btw. moya...shes back to her usual self. the happy moya i always knew. tho, wen i spotted her sitting in her tambayan i had to feel un-comfortable - immediately allowing myself to breeze past the building wing...she did call out my name and waved. hahaha...a note to the viewers: trust me, shes just a good friend. i dnt wnt you guys to go assuming besides k. joey told me sooner later sonmeone might sue me for publishing "my tactless" behavior on the world wide web. tut tut tut...tsk tsk tsk. so might as well my intentions and interpretations clear else suffer the consequences. hehehe. the reason im writing this paragraph? because im begining to appreciate the kind of person she is...
oh...i found a nice skin. hehehe...hope you like it. it will be the motiff for the month of august. tho... i personally dont think skul sucks but i feel its a nice way to relieve myself from the stress of a typical UPian ...plus i just love the colors.
cya...ill end this show na. see you next thursday. i do apologize for the lack of activity in posting. hehehe...
jay here, peace out.
losing my grip. [9:36 PM]
tired...
when have i never been tired? hahaha...rare yan. oh well, yesterday happens ot be rand's bday and..my my...pagod na ako! tipong "hang-over"...
immediatly right after my 9am-7pm classes, i had to rush over at my place to fix and atleast make trhe place look presentable. it would have been no big deal if i wasn't sneezing non-stop since my swimming class. haay....the typical me when i get colds...i was totally exhausted trying to control the mucus flooding out of my nose (yuk!) simultaneously solving statistical problems and keeping my poist. my classmates couldnt stop getting the kick outta me everytime i sneezed. during the party...or rather when rand brought his friends over to delight themselves with the mango float we prepared, i felt like the party pooper..si mister kill joy. hahaha, i cnt help it if i feel sleepy most of the time...my head was aching like hell. but that didnt stop me to atleast try enjoying their company. for the sake of my lil bro, i did.
they left around 12mn after plenty of chichiria munching, laughing,a surprising explosion from what we thought to be a subtle sparkler, a game of scrabbles (where i won)...plenty of smiles....and also ace's presumption that something bad happend to rand when he had to send cheska home. hahaha...
oh well...im no good with details...
most probably...il come back and edit this post to contain several pictures taken. hehehe...
oh dear...look at the time.
got to go...
losing my grip. [3:43 PM]
untitled
couldnt think of a better title. it either gives me the pleasure of writing just about anything or the emptiness that comes too mind when thinking of what to write next. lol..
oh well...either ways, it will serve its purpose hence the title does seem fit.
sparks kinda flew when i saw kim today. hahaha...not love sparks i guess. its just that i have been always trying not to make this girl run around my lil brain 24-7 that when i get to see her (w/c i rarely do) i couldnt stop myself from being a bit "nasty" and in a rather "lambing" way. hahaha...i guess i just missed her; thats all. oh well, i did recieve a punch or two w/c she also fondly does (and i certainly do not want to assume if contains..."certain conotations") oh well, atleast we not in bad terms.
hala..d2 na si jomar. i do have to go. write a longer post on monday (fingers crossed here...).
visit this site...ul have a blast!!!
http://www.wagenschenke.ch/
g'nyt
losing my grip. [9:42 PM]
BOOO!!!!
hahaha..did i scare you?
hehehe...this is cool. decided to download this hello program feat bloggerbot....
and wala!!!! i can upload pictures...har har har.
well thats me. hehehe...and pangit ko. hehehe.
its saturday. me and rand prepared mango float for his bday this coming monday. it was...um...a rather sticky experience. can't wait to munch it down...
elbi for a week now is experiencing frequent heavy rainshowers. wla lng...just wanted you to know that i always end up getting wet lately.
oh well...im brain drained....have nothing much to ramble about.
*yawn*
losing my grip. [4:10 PM]
dropping by
im actually on the run...but decided to atleast leave a note.
*moya said hi....it sure did "pass"...but...less friendly. she texted tho asking if there was still posibilities...i wonder why shes that eager on wanting me to be her brod? i dare not assume *winks*
*rand slept last night at the house...tatlo n kmi. but i didnt puyat or anything.
*oh yes and before that...we were at blue box (along with eds)...decided to buy 1 HALF GALLON OF COOKIES and CREAM dan eric's...amazingly, the fours of us chowed it down. it was kinda cute ksi tambay lng kmi sa likod ng dorm nila...w/o spoons or bowls-armed only with wooden-watchamecolit-spoons??
*absent ako sa spcm 1 yesterday...coz..hehehe...i wasnt prepared to face class. didnt want kya joey to get mad at me.
*exam later in the evening and i havnt studied...hehehe.
*but i do plan to later in the afternoon.
*im wearing a blue polo, nice jeans and leather shoes: haha...people still think im joining an org and on dress code.
bye bye!!!!
losing my grip. [11:45 AM]
weheee....
jomar told me i was happy..
oh well, i am.
yesterday, i was able to talk to kuya joey about my doubts in joining the org. luckily...he did convince me to NOT join the org...and any other academic org. he is pretty much concerned with my priorities and my academic status. hahaha...haay, i really appreciate what he did. though at first i was still confused with what to do...i impulsively gave him my tickler as not to tempt myself to continue joining the org. AND IT WORKED....hahaha. i know im eating my own words on my dislike on "quitters" but oh well...i never felt so "free" since the day i presented.
drawbacks? plenty actually...but i was able to formally defer in front of most of the mem comm. hehehe...atleast that wouldnt make me look so coward. it was funny how the mem comm stil tried to convince me by saying that it would be ok if i had already plenty obligations...etc etc...
but i got away with being so ideally self righteous. hahaha...and also with a white lie that my dad has restricted me from joining the org. (but im pretty sure he would, he just doesnt know that i am..haay, bad tlga ako.)
about the drawbacks...
man...you should have seen the reaction on moya's face. haay....
the way she reacted when i told her im presenting was the exact intensity when she found out that i was quitting. she walked out on me...wow, that was the last reaction i was expecting...
oh well, it did not totally affect me....aside from the fact that i was actually slack-jawed when she walked away...(it kinda turned me off...)hahaha...
but oh well...i guess she really wanted me to join the org and i gave her high hopes...etc etc. bad me..
oh well...im really sorry moya...
sna...never mind. it kinda feels so mbabaw that she wouldnt befriend me bcoz im not part of her org. oh well...it'll pass. I hope...
but i do plan to apologize.
anyways...
got 50/50 in kuya joeys class...hahaha. boy that was nice...it felt even better when i was able to feel really happy (even if i didnt have to flaunt it, w/c i would never; sir joey described the class performance as a disaster!!!)....bcoz sir joey did not announce my score. it was my first time not to feel conscious and nhhiya sa mga accomplishments ko (no false humility!hehehe...)
but that got me the momentum. i already had my bio101 exam and just awhile ago i had my vmcb124 exam. they went swell...easy and straightforward but i still feel i failed to memorize several concepts...and a few of my answers were a bit "rusty". oh...well...i feel the momentum.
plus jomar's presence as my roommate really does help. slept 3am earlier this morning. haay...
im tired. im sorry about yesterday. i wasnt able to make a post because i got stranded at the baker hall after training. had real fun hanging out with the varsity...it made me realize that i really dnt need another org to "make new friends"...dapat contento na ako!!!
oh dear...two hours na ako d2. my head is aching. i think i just need to sleep.
SEE YOU TOMORROW....
kip kewl...
losing my grip. [4:38 PM]
my bad!
queer title...cnt think of anything else...
im just in so the mood to open my bro's email and read thru his emails. naks, he's kinda catching up on his kababata, aiden...and my my...has She grown. she sort of sent pics and grbeh...dalaga n jud cya. maganda pa! hehehe...i wonder what john thinks...hmmm.
dang...i miss him. im starting to miss people. even if they're just around the campus. well, i sort of realized that i have been feeling lonely lately. lots of things change, especially when all your blocmates belong to diff orgs, when most of your super-classmates last sem you rarely see, or when you find yourself sitting by yourself waiting for time to creep by. haay...
i just had my first exam (bio101) for this sem. i do hope i get good result, i know i studied but i feel its just wasnt enough. i did answer everything but im quite doubtful on 1 - 2 items...i do hope this becomes the driving force that'll have me breeze through this sem.
it rained HARD tonight; actually im a bit soaked...
had dinner with mia and i couldn't help but feel depressed about alot of things... i guess i just had to emotionally explode in front of her...she said i look terrible...
i told her i was just tired.
i need to rest...i slept around 2am earlier this AM. it actually worked! i figured if i did have a roommate...his presence would kinda keep me awake, kill boredom and push me to do to the usual 10 pm - 2am study habits of last year's first sem. haha..im glad jomar was there last night. i asked him to stay for a week or so. i guees, i also need to catch up on alot of kwento...
my minds not working well...im really tired. im just letting my fingers do all the work here. actually, words are just coming out of my brain...forgive me if this post has no sense of direction at all...
my bad....
g'nyt BLOG!
oh btw...reporting might start next week...im having my fingers crossed...mdmi pa akng exams and things to do.
losing my grip. [9:59 PM]
@ a Standstill....
im kinda getting woried...
oh well...i always portrayed myself as superman especially since the young clark kent has been my smallville hero back in highskul. but right now...i suck! i lack momentum to get studying real hard.
i woke at 4am today so i could begin a long day of (w/c i planned) studying. 2 hours of holding my bio101 notebuk, i didnt get anywhere....haay...my mind is just so preoccupied with daydreams, thoughts...and plenty of idle moments. grbeh! so i decided to get out...run away from being nothing....a break from the boredom (ironically, the very thing im creating)....so here i am @ "the internet cafe @ demarses". sadly zara's IC is closed as of the moment. i dnt plan to stay long...i really need to study.
man, I NEED INSPIRATION!!!!
oh well...
i dnt want to stay long..
i still have plenty of things to do.
btw, after yesterday's post..i went to mcdo to autoload my globe prepaid account (cellular/mobile service). only to find miriam, my freshman classmate in math 1, seatmate actually. hahaha...imagine, i hardly notice 2 hrs pass coz she was one hell of a person to be with. shes nice and fun.
hehehe...her nick is Brooke and she is so B!.
Busaw, Bungol, Bulag....mdmi pa...hahaha. oh well...
from zamboanga din cya, so its kinda nice coz we both can express our longings for the island of mindanao. hehehe...plus, we both share the same experiences with....bitterness. hahaha.
enough of that...
im starting to make this blog a manifistation of my being bitter.
oh well... i better concentrate on utopia so i can get lost.
i need inspiration!!! im no superman. hehehe...
losing my grip. [8:48 AM]
Home alone...the 1st day!
hahaha...first night w/o my dad went swell. not that i wanted my dad not to be around (coz im already missing him); its just that i got to invite rand to sleep over at the apartment.
we slept around 2am. hahaha....
well last night was the all-CAS orgs' palacasan opening, "bucasan"....
w/c included a mr. & ms. palacasan crowning ceremony (there was a pre-pageant last wednesday; oh yes, i mentioned about that in my post.)
and a cheering contest.
so...after spending the whole day with rand..and then listening to him jock the reality check show on LBFM 97.4 (local loud and proud!!!).. we had a quick dinner, checked him out of his dorm and rushed to the "really" packed BAKER HALL. my God,...it literally became ..."the BAKER hall". it was hot and crowded. (btw ace was also with us) i was already pittying ace coz she forgot her contacts and she couldnt see a thing while we stood behind all the the towering people trying to squeeze in to get a better view. i was ok (duh)...but eventually i let up fearing that i might end up with a strained neck and sore toes. oh well, we didnt stay long in the crowd instead we went to the entrance...only to find ate con and kim. hehehe...
rand and ace went berserk...haay...never mind that.
i was shocked to find myself..."all of a sudden" QUIET....it was a queer sensation coz i was utterly speechless...nevertheless....after a few stare here and there...someone had to punch me in the shoulder to get me to atleast say something. it felt "nice"...hehehe....oh well....im tlking in riddle. i dnt like to be very vocal...its a delicate issue. lol.
anyways...jomar didnt win. huhuhu...that was real sad. but, hehehe., his talent and the way he dressed didnt have that winning afactor. (ang sama ko! but in fairness, he does got the looks...sayang lng un "talent" pinakita nya. hahaha)
the cheering contest was a mix of boring presentations and swell ones..
my personal favs came from the
chem soc (they actually won)...impressed me with nice dancing and really high pyramids.
coss...lovely coriography...with an impressive yellow and black mottif and they used umbrellas. it was real cute.
comm soc....nice nice nice....fresh innovations and ideas. i was also impressed with how they practiced for the past month.
oh well...me and rand didnt finish the show. (they told me it ended around 3 am)...
this morning....i had a great time with rand. we had breakfast, i did my laundry....we had a really heavy lunch. hehehe...he's starting to be my lil bro here in campus. oh well...no use going to the details of our conversations..
hahaha...coz its basically everything under the sun.
oh well...
im happy people. i do not know why. i mean i do know...but im scared to just embrace the bliss for fear when i do...it'll just slip away...
for me, such bliss is enough to be marvelled at even if it lacked the sense of touch...
hahaha...who could touch happiness anyway?
im happy.... :))
losing my grip. [5:13 PM]
Noooo.....!!!!!
huhuhu...i have no idea what i just did this morning. it seems that i am going to be joining gene soc....huhuhuhu...
arg...what did i do..
actually i did make the perfect excuse saying that my dad left me all alone at home but then...Noooooo...
MOYA...argh...she was so convincing and she had to act so helpless saying that she already announced to her whole org that IM PRESENTING!!! haay...she told me that she'll be dead meat if i dnt present...
so what cud i do? nkk_AWA cya! huhuhu..
oh well, nevertheless...i did scream (yes, in front of her in the middle of the biosci hall)...let out a deep sigh...and said "yes" (jasper you fool...!)
oh well...at least i got a good HUG from her. hehehe....
haay...the "presenting" went well...i mean...ndi msydo sila ng-kupal...hehehe. oh well..kaya ko to.
oist...ksma ko si rand ngyn...
and im getting hungry..
btw, dad left for davao this morning. so ill be alone for 5 weeks...
weeheee.....hehehe...um, i think?
ewan ko...bhala na din. i might as well invite people for sleepovers.
yada yada....
see you soon.
losing my grip. [11:43 AM]
CRAZY!!!!
hahaha...go visit this site.....
http://www.shes-crafty.net/you/wish.html
i saw a bulletin post on friendster saying to go visit that site...
when i did i got the most craziest things i computer software could tell me...
(go check the site and ul understand why...)
this is what i got...
* admit it you're hot for moya (whatever that means!!!...pero nGulat ako d2 ah...)
* you actually like "may" but theres just no spark or whatever (really now...partly true...maybe?)
* you care alot about kim (ehem ehem...so true.)
* jomar knows you better than yourself (hahaha...sympre...bestfriend ko yan eh)
* rand is your lucky star... (lol...yes yes, he can be....)
* the song - bkit ngyn k lng is what describes your relationship with moya (um...duh? no way!)
* tadhana is the song for "may"...(hahahaha...now i cnt stop laughing)
* harana is whats on your mind...(hmmm...now thats a flaw in the software.hehehe)
* incomplete is what describes what you feel about life....(hahahahhaa...w/o you girl my life is incomplete? crazy indeed...man, i love the person hu design this!)
* got to tell 2 pipzs about this or else my wish doesnt go true....hahaha. whatever!!! im going to tell the whole bunch of contacts on my email ad buk.
hahaha...and try "right click"ing the page....
have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!
losing my grip. [7:44 PM]
its raining.....cows and pigs....
haay...its raining outside. just when i thought ill be going offline and save a few pesos from a tight budget. naku...umulan pa! hmph...i have dis wierd feeling that the cafe has power over the skies and invokes storm clouds each time i log in. wierd sense of imagination eh?
oh well...its raining...ive done my utopia na, ive done all the researching for my saccharomyces report and i just made a (hopefully) intelligent hunch on the identity of my mold...ALternaria. the macroscopic description...well according to my judgement...seems to match my unknown mold. haay...i was so makulit kay maam asking for clues and trying to confirm if my mold happens to be aspergillus,penicillin or trichoderma...i believe i mentioned all the genus my lil mind bank could remember...haay...to no avail, she just nodded NO each time.
i do hope its alternaria...huhuhuhu. deadline for the submission of the lab report is this friday and i havnt even started on my yeast report!
btw...yesterday's quiz in joey's class went swell..
i hope i aced it as much as i felt it was easy. hahaha...
oh dear, no use sucking on high hopes...it'll kill yah.
early dis morning...i met with the subject of my last blog (me angel...; do check it out...its still online and i refuse to delete it. monsieur-unknown,blogspot.com...so atleast you have an idea how i felt for this certain subject)....hahaha. so she came up to me, as she usually does...with that cute smile and (trust me) friendly intentions...and told me (like she always does...haay)..."jas, sumali k na sa amin!"...
ok...moya, the PRO and ms.palacasan rep of genetics society-UPLB,my once object of desire last semester, being so kulit on wanting me to join her org. really, it always makes me feel so un-comfortable when i kip saying ill think about it and leave her hanging with hypothethical situations. argh...this morning, my tongued slipped...."hmm..wait...ill see if i can 'present' by this friday"...man o man...you should have seen the reaction on her face and how she grabbed my hand (w/c I HAD TO NOTICE...of course i wasnt trying to imply anything malicious but...hey, guys will be guys...she held my hand...hahaha.) saying..."promise???"...and that came with a "certain" expression...
JASPER WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhu..
i dnt know how ill get out of this mess...its either i make i good excuse or...haay...endure one week of reporting and a night of finals.
ewan ko...i do want to join an academic org but im not sure if i can handle additional responsibility (im already overloaded!). argh...
oh...hello...it stopped raining. ive been here for atleast an hour and a half...
and this guy besides me (looking so suspicious) is trying to hide his screen...duh...hentai freek. oh well...
yada yada...oh ayh before i forgot. embarassing moment of the day (not that the public knew...personal embarassment): in swimming class... decided to wear trunks going into class...and i totally forgot to pack a pair of boxers/underwear into my back. hahaha..so i had to endure the most yuckiest and itchiest sensations for an hour at my vet-micro class before i could get home and relieve myself of...um...the burden. lol...
hahaha....i bet that was karma for showing off to my "gay" friend that i was in trunks! hahahaha...
cya...i better be off...
oh...PS...
i would like to welcome JOSH....hahaha...
sana mgging frequent blogger-reader ko...yuk yuk yuk...
welcome to the "waste ur time on jay's ridiculous ramblings CLUB"
oh...that doesnt make sense...he happens to be the founder...hahaha.
losing my grip. [5:51 PM]
yada yada tWooosday...
yehayy...the 2nd best day of the week next to friday. love this day. start the day at 11:30am and end it at 4pm.
i was suppose to get offline after checking my account on utopia. but then...hehehe. i saw kim online. thought i might as well chat with her... i mean, i hvnt been doing any decent form of communictaion with this gal. haay...
accrding to my spcm class (in w/c, as i mentioned last night, we will have a long quiz) communication is what construct, negotiates, ...(wait...argh!!! i forgot, im suppose to me...where are my notes?!!?) and defines interpersonal relationship. hmmm...hence if you guys dnt talk wla cgurong kaung interpersonal relationship.oh well....friends dapat kmi ni kim (i might as well make it seem that way....on my part)...
ewan ko sa knya!!! i dnt want ramble and get pissed with the way things are...especially with the definition of OUR interpersonal realtionship. don't get me wrong...im not kim's BF or am i her ex...hahaha. its just...never mind.
oh well...enough of that...im suppose to be happy! its a TWOosday....
i think im set for today's quiz in spcm....i mean i did study hard. i think i just need to review a bit...i plan to stay at the dojo from 10-11....maybe see how CQ is doing with his arnis class...hehehe.
oh well...the gal is offline. i might as wel too....its nearing 10am...i best be reviewing at the dojo. i might write here later in the evening.
losing my grip. [9:33 AM]
Mooonnnndayyyyy.....ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haay...a loong monday nnmn. you wouldnt believe my sked on mondays. trust me, its worst then the thursday i mentioned last week. its goes on from 9am allllll thhhheeee waaaayyyyy tooooo 7pm in the evening. THATS 10 hours of listening to lectures etc...huhuhu...i missed my lunch agen. and imagine i had to do 20++ laps in swimming class earlier this afternoon.
oh well, im real tired me dear blog and hungry.
yah...i finally figured out my unknown yeast culture in microbiology 101 (weird subject to talk about esp wen feeling hungry???)...it was only Saccharomyces ...sheesh i went to all the trouble of re-doing my staining inorder to look for identification characteristics in my culture's ascospores and just to find out that the unknown im being growing for the past 3 weeks is just the same culture as the controlled sample i was assigned to grow. goodness...it was just right under my NOSE the whole time and i never sniffed it out. haay...
oh well, im still clueless with my mold culture....i havw no reference or whatsoever to give me intelligent hunches of my mold genus. Its colony is kinda green to brown....could either be trichoderma or penicillin...but the way the asexual spore are arranged is having me bewildered. its clustered in a sphere (as if it were a sporangium but its not since it so happens to be a characteristic of non-septate molds...w/c i do have.)....its most probably conidia clumped in a spherical/globular fashion. oh well...im still searching for other clues. i still have till friday to figure things out and write a presentable report.
stat one was real msya....the last laboratory exercies i aced again. hehehe...i guess when "someone" really special would challenge (mock actually) in this kinda manner: "hmph...wla lng grades mo...pero kng ma-uno mo stat1...believe na ako sau!!!" hahhaah....oh well...i still dont want to assume that ill be getting that grade....but im trying to (or that happens to be my goal). i know i could get it if i just set my priorities right and TRUST HIM!!!!
btw..im kinda missing my phone. actully the phone is with me but i left my sim at bennie's phone....i forgot to get it after hiking down NAC yesterday. hmm...its kinda nice not having to worry about ur phone (if its in ur pocket or if you have an unread msg)...but in a way, i knda wonder if there are people trying to communicate with me....hmmm....oh well, sooner or later i'll see bennie around the campus and get my sim back.
tomorrow, i have a long quiz or short exam (according to sir joey) in my spcm1 class. i havnt studied thoroughly but i plan to do that later in the evening (sna ndi ako mtulog ng maaga). i mean...i once said id ace joey's class and ended up eating my own words at the end of the sem (and received the lowest grade i have received so far..God willing.) this time...i didnt say anything...hahaha. its kinda awkward since me and kuya joey have gotten close since i recieved "that" grade and now he is my teacher once again in SPCM1...hahaha...i cnt help but suppress my laughs and amusement of seeing him teaching in class. but i bet he can sense it...i mean he teaches COMMUNICATION ARTS..of course he'd notice non-verbal gestures...plus i always let out smiles every time our eyes connect....hehehe. good ol sir joey...
thats all for today....im already here for about an hour....
i plan to be tipid dis week...negative na ang mga savings ko....
losing my grip. [6:39 PM]
TGIF? argh....i hate that cliche.....hehehe, not that i hate fridays...
i mean i love fridays. just dont want to go on saying "oi...its a friday...TGIF"....sounds corny. hehehe...forgive me for being so radical. oh well, i love fridays. its the only day i get to have lunch.
btw, last night....thursday night: (just so i can finish off my post about thursdays)
training was real fun. i came in late (as usual) only to find out that i would be the dummy in that night's exhibition and demo. ahaha...i felt so stupid when i pretended (actually acting really good) when i was thrown about the floor. oh well...at least the audience had a good laugh (and i...a good backache and sour fore finger.) hehehe...
as i said the training went great....esp going thru the "bigay-tama" drills...
after training...despite the fact that i was a bit apprenhensive to go to last night's fellowship...oh well, impulsive decisiveness got the better of me...i raced towards the fortress...hahaha, but i had a great time. it was one fellowship w/c made me realize things. the topic (discussed over small groups) was on john 8...about mary madeline and how Jesus saved her (forgave her too) from the Pharisees...over the discussion, it amazed me how much i was able to participate and elicit ideas w/c did instill in the minds of the people in the group...hahaha, my dad told me that i felt so..."kuya"...
nevertheless...i think i did.
later arriving home...i had dinner (my dad already ate..it was 10.30pm! but he sat with me in the table...and we had our usual dad-son conversation). i was tired but my mind was racing with...stuff. i was still mentally hyper and couldn't resist playing the computer diablo till 12am. sigh...bad me! i should have been studying. oh well...
Friday:
Dad is in Bulacan as of the moment. he was suppose too leave at around 4.30 am but since we both slept at about 12...he was half an hour late.hahaha...me? I SLEPT THRUOUT MY FIRST CLASS>...
man, i was fustrated. i even missed a qiuz...oh well, it didnt sink in that much. i just woke up...stared at my watch..trying to figure out if im seeing it correctly. hahaha...well, upon realizing that i already missed the first class (MCB 101 lecture..where we only meet once a week)...i let out a good cuss...and felt better. hehehe. well, that didnt stop me from missing out the next class...so i rushed to the CR, had a good soak of h20 and the orange soap...brushed my teeth...add on gel...grabed my notebuk...grabbed my bike and raced to the institue of biological sciences. i was already late for bio101 but nevertheless caught on the lecture w/o trouble.
actually, it seems that bio101 has become my favorite class. the professor is great...she has good diction and presents the subject matter organized and with a flow that wouldnt have your mind jumbled with information. plus...i also had the nack for genetics and biochemistry: two of the major components of the molecular bio class (bio101). so i like the subject.
my...next clasS? hahaha...the weekends. REALLY! i only have two hours of lecture on Fridays and thats it! toldya i loved fridays.
right now its nearing 12pm...and i have a lunch date with this freshie. he's name is rand and i have to admit that im quite fond of him. he's as talkative as i am and have the same wavelenghts and vibes as i have. so we kinda clash...creating a mutual "hey...we'll stick-kinda-friendship"...he is great.
Rand and i met during one of the survey the navigators conducted among the freshie...
its a annual week-long activity that we(the navigators) hold so we can basically reach out to the freshmen. well, i think it was a thursday of that week when i was assigned in the men's dorm (a co-ed..ironic noh?...dorm for freshmen). there sitting on the lounge, i saw rand's group. and my GOd...they were so NOISY.hahaha...
oh well..it didnt take me long to decide to approach them and ask to feel up the forms. w/c they gladly did. there i met RAND, ACE, and KAYE.
for the next 2 activities the navigators held (FRESHMEN TREAT and one of the DINNER parties), i was excited to invite rand's group over. and...wow...all of us had a great time.
and for the past few weeks....im usually caught in the middle of the "young group" acting so...KUYA. hahaha..
oh dear...there i go again...i always end up writing about "everything aside from the topic"...hehehe
oist...its nearing 12....got to be going.
bon apetit.
losing my grip. [11:04 AM]
Killing Time? killing thursdays!
i dont believe im actually doing this. oh well...here i am sitting in the internet cafe. (honestly) not because of this blog but because of UTOPIA. hahaha...oh well, i didnt plan to be online for an hour or more but (sigh) circumstances in the game had to have me wait for about an hour and a half. Oh well, aside from scanning about the friendster world, i decided to write a bit here.
You wouldn't believe the schedule im running in this UNIVERSITY. today is thursday...the not so wanna be in this kinda day. though my first class starts 11:30am...it goes on (SKIPPING LUNCH!!!) until 7 in the evening! imagine that! thats 7.5 hours NON-STOP!! huhuhuhu...plus not to mention the additional 2 hours for ARNIS training (but i like training).
Its kinda sad coz the Navigators is holding a fellowship around 7-9...hmmm...im having doubts of trying to make habol...coz....i still havent thought of a way to walk-in fashionable...(late).
But anyways...since im talking about thursdays. Let me describe to you a typical thurs...DAY!
i wake up (not to the sound of my alarm clock; lucky me!) but to the groaning of my stomach (lol, im always hungry.). skipping out of my bed, i walk right to the next room. Where (today) my dad is already eating his share of oatmeal. yumyum.... Oatmeal. goodness, i love them esp wen baked into something. add in fresh milk, a bit of sugar (dad's diabetic so i wouldn't risk it either)...and munch my way thru. lol...i had 3 servings (still alot of sugar....forgive me). then laying back on the monobloc chair...i poured myself a glass of hot water (duh...i didnt drink that)...got one sachet of good ol swiss miss chocolate w marshmellows and had a hearthy drink. of course that was in my fav black mug w/c had "MEN are not PIGS" labeled around it.
hahaha...yes yes (i mean if you so happened to be a bitter FCS*/feminist )...to my dismay, upon the bliss of finding a cup which shared a mutual desire to express "those that needed expressed" and the eagerness ot buy such a cup, i totally missed out the small inscriptions w/c read..."pigs are gentle, sensitive and intelligent animals"
lol...but nevertheless....when looking at the cup (dreamingly--that happens when you drink or have too much chocholate)...i always assure myself: "hmmm...so that would make women Pigs ey?" hahaha....
a cold shower always follow my breakfast. This is where i begin my grooming...(i need not go to all the details...comeon, thats for me to know and for my GF to fing out -> not that i have one...but maybe...when i get one. hahaha..) oh well...i guess the only thing worth saying for today's ridiculous post is when i noticed that there was a new bar soap laid on where it should be laid. me and my dad share soaps...i mean, He IS my DAD. (nevermind, i usually have my own...) but anyways, the soap's unique scent was what first caught my attention. It was unique (and i suck at descriptive vocabulary..so no use on trying)....but what really made me...um...."want to use it"...(hahaha, sorry for the lack of creative what-so-ever to make it sound...um....nevermind.
yehay...my best friend (one of the many, actually) is online. hmm...ill chat for awhile.
WHAT!!!!? now, he told me that Nikko and himself (allow me to introduce...PEMPEM and NIKKO...two of the few who i love) ahve found themselve GIRLFRIENDS...ARGH>....NO!!!!!!
huhuhu...im so bitter. never mind that...
anyways since pem hasnt replied yet...the soap:
IT WAS ORANGE....hahaha, now that sounded fetish. lol...
hey, i cant help it....i love orange....
ok...just as a thought...pem was "practicing" the phrase..."may uyab n kmi ni nikko bai..." hahaha...haay... i miss the two.
this is another reason why i go online. sometimes it can be lonely studying in this university....i just need ways to connect to friends.
back to thursdays: after getting all geared up...i race (on my bike) to the nearest internet cafe....hence "here i am"...duh! and like i meantioned. UTOPIA!!!!hehehe...
my first class is Math 1....thats in an hour so i need to have early lunch (brunch...but i had breakfast!).
hahaha..
i think i'll write something about my classes....maybe later.
but as of now...
thats early thursdays!
losing my grip. [9:50 AM]
Bitter...
and as i promised. the way i complicate things...
a friend sent me a small story with a foot note to forward it to someone special. of course he mentioned a specific person...i was just bitter.
THE MSG:
A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding
through the night. They
loved each other a lot..
Girl: "slow down a little.. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.."
Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.."
The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on?
It's uncomfortable and its bothering me while i
drive."
The next day, there was a story in the
newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a
building because its
brakes were broken. There were two people on the
motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had
survived......
The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He
didn't want to let the girl know, because he
knew
that the girl would have gotten scared.
Instead, he was told the last time that she
loved him, got a hug from
her, put his helmet on her so that she can live,
and died himself...
SO....why do we love ba?
so we can have somebody to talk to?
someone who can be there pag gusto natin gumala?
a person na pwedeng manlibre satin?
taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo?
ALALAY for short!
eh pano kung di ka nya mahal?
would you still love him/her?
would you still continue to care for that
person?
bakit naman hinde?
SABI NILA....
you didnt love that person para magkaroon ka ng
alalay,
magkaroon ka ng instant meal dahil libre,
taong gagawa ng assignments mo or projects,
or taong mahihila mo if you want to go out...
if thats what you think about love...well sorry
ang BABAW mo!
loving a person doesn't need to have a criteria
na dapat maganda o guwapo,
dapat mabait or understanding,
kasi once you love you take the risk of
accepting dat person
kahit maingay sya matulog, yung hilik ng hilik
kahit matakaw sya o sobrang fat na hindi kayo
kasya pag puno ang jeep!
kahit sobrang moody nya na kulang nalang ay
sapakin mo sa inis!
yung sobrang selosa/seloso na pati barkada
pinagseselosan..
badtrip diba?
and yung napaka-arte OA kung baga!
o kahit ano pang things
that would turn you off...
hirap tlaga magmahal trying to be PERFECT kase
gusto mong magtagal
pero hindi yun ang sagot sa lahat...
ACCEPTING the real person fully
kase if you said na mahal mo sya you dont need
to find answers
kung bakit mo sya mahal...
kase lahat ng tao nagbabago but if you accept
that person
magbago man sya in the middle of your
relationship
hindi ka masasaktan kase you know that darating
din yun..
tsaka tanggap mo sya ng buo...
Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.
It means you've decided to see beyond the
imperfections.... ü
mahirap gawin pero masarap subukan dahil
wala ng sasaya pa if you let one person feel na
MAHAL NA MAHAL mo sya without asking 4 anything
return...
then you can say wow un pla ang
LOVE!
asus...loving w/o anything in return?
Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang
napakalaking
oxymoron. Lahat ng
pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at
totoo
pa rin.
Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw.
Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo
naiintindihan pero
naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason.
Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit
magmahal. Pero okey lang.
tangina, ano ba talaga?!
May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only
for
stupid people."
Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero
dumating ang
panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun,
tanga
na siya ngayon.
Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging
oxymoron
din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang.
Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig.
Lahat
ng bagay
nababaligtad din niya. Lahat ng malalakas na
tao,
humihina. Ang
mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. Ang mga walang
pakialam,
nagiging Mother
Teresa. Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. Ang
malulungkot,
sumasaya.
Nakakatawa talaga. Lalo na kapag dumadating siya
sa
mga taong ayaw na
talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh. Parang kung
gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang
ang
magic words na
"Ayoko na ma-inlove!" biglang WACHA! Ayan na
siya.
Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman.
Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng
ibang tao, ang galing
galing mo? Pero 'pag problema mo na yung
pinag-uusapan parang
nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa
namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang
mali
dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala
ring
tama?
Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong
tinamaan
ng madugong pana ng
pag-ibig. "Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala.
Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na 'ko
mamatay. Now na!"
At hindi lang 'yon. Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng
mga
taong alam naman
nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa
rin
sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos 'pag luray-luray na
yung puso nila,
siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan.
Siya! "Bakit
niya 'ko
sinaktan?" May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader
yon,
at pagbabagsak ng
pinto.
Hayop talaga.
Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga
bagay
na nakakatawa 'pag
pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming beses
ko na
kasi siya nakasalubong
kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na 'ko.
Pero wala pa rin akong alam.
Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang
katotohanang kapag gusto
magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng
ari-arian mo dahil
siguradong ikaw ang punchline.
Nakakatawa no?
Nakakaiyak.
leche....naiinis tuloy ako! bitter ba?
losing my grip. [7:50 PM]
Me....the worst topic i could think of....
heya blog...
oh well, i just wanted to start me blog (officially) by talking about my self.
hahaha...yah, im can be one hell of a vain person. but hey...it counts to be confident.
you can call me -yaj-, the reverse of my nick...
to start things, im tall....hahaha. tall and practically lean. i sport a messy hair and pretty much tanned. Im not cute...despite the fact i refuse to think such. i mean i could be...but...hahaha. never mind. i told you am vain...haay, im not good with descriptive words...
so you just have to meet me in person. besides im getting bored with writting about myself.
friends say im friendly, touchy (most girls notice it...hahaha...)...malambing sa salitang tagalog. i know how to drive a good conversation and can drive people crazy at the same time. i talk alot...i love to talk...esp with people hu pretend they can stand me. but it all depends on the mood...i guess there are moments where i rather sit alone and think. oh and i love thinking..daydream actually..
i reminisce....i dream big...i complicate stuff. i dont think intellectual stuff...no no no..
i like thinking about situations...real life situations. then i complicate it by what if questions....hahaha.
heres an example...
a friend sent me a msg about love and i couldnt help but react....
oh well...ill post that later.
im a certified hopeless romantic. i dnt know...i never was smart about love...hahaha...never mind. im still bitter.
people, on the other hand, find me intelligent. i guess i really do work myself to excel in several subjects. but i really have to hand it to God's help and my insecurities (i dont trust myself when i study....i drive myself to hard)...and maybe by just being inspired.
but as of now...
im lazy. i just wana sleep and think...
im depressed maybe...(no! i will not ruin my blog by mixing "that" kinda stuff...not just yet//..)
im an utopian addict. its an internet game...not like ragnorok or the like...its preety much complicated so i better not explain it. well, thats the very reason why im online atleast once a day. sometimes every 12 hours..
hey, i cant help it. its my form of release...
hmmm...but as of the moment, its a drug.
i love coffee and the color orange. id make the perfect cafe my tamabyan...(that should include music of my taste.) Orange on the other hand is something i cant get over with..esp wen its paired up with blue.hahaha...SUNSETS! i love them.
im a self acclaimed heaven fanatic..
i love the stars and the moon. sunsets, sunrise...
clouds....
wla lng...its really connected with being a hopeless romantic....
i currently am affiliated with the universities ARNIS varsity. but am not really good at it. but atleast i train for the varsity...
im also with the NAVIGATORS>..thats a chrisitain org.
i dont want to say im rely religious or holy (i know im not)...
but i know i have strong faith....im just not vocal nor do i flunt it. ahhaha....never mind.
oh well...
im kinda tired...thats all for today...
losing my grip. [7:04 PM]
Starting all over again?
hahaha...so why am i doing this again?
i have no idea...oh well. what the hell, i know i always wanted to kip a journal of such and such...BUT AHHHHHH>....(forgive me for screaming)...haaay...all efforts will be futile!
but anyways, despite the fact i left my poor first blog out in the wood one bad day....i called him "me thing" back then....and the fact i might sooner or later abandon this blog as well...haay...atleast i tried? lol..
hmmm...ill try retrieving my last blog and paste it here and there...
tsk tsk...
so....
to all whoever hu do encounter my wee lil blog...and enjoy following thru the plain and ridiculous interpretations of my life...
ENJOY....
yours truly....
losing my grip. [6:43 PM]
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